Today has been awe-inspiring. Today i see the depths from which girls can sink, and how far they can go. And nothing even happened to me! I just sat and watched their havoc being wrecked upon someone else for a change. And to be honest...it made me deeply angry.
In fact i do believe that it instilled even more distrust in me.
I look back on almost all of my relationships. And im going to be straight forward...i used to think that things happen to you for a reason, and you learn from your mistakes and you become a better person....Well that is all well and good, but when you continually meet people that do not learn their lesson and fuck things up....we'll it's just annoying.
I try and look back on my past relationships/crushes...whatever you want to call them....and im trying to sense a pattern....
To be honest...im thinking now...of girls that have never fucked me over somehow when we dated or talked. As in girls that never cheated on me, lied to me in some strong way, left me for someone else....etc.
Let me start naming them....lets see...Krystle...Becky...uhm
What the fuck.
Can someone please tell me whats wrong with this picture?...please, just for a moment....
People wonder why my self-esteem and trust are shot. *rolls eyes*
And out of both of those girls...i was the one that screwed the relationship up. Because im an idiot....
It's alright though, i look back at everyone i've wasted my time with, and i laugh. Because you know what,i don't need them obviously. In a month im going to have my own place....living on my own...life is going work great. Robby and i already have a million ideas for the new place....I think this is going to be the best thing for me ever.
And guess what, i was right about you again. I'm a freaking psychic and you just need to grow up.